I’m a clairvoyant medium.
This means I can see things that other people can’t see -
Namely, dead people.
A medium is someone who can communicate with the deceased (often a process that occurs through the intuitive senses) and there are many different kinds of mediums.
Some mediums can hear spirits while others can only see them.
Some mediums can feel spirits, but they can’t hear them.
Some mediums can see spirits, but they can’t feel them.
I’m a medium who can see Spirits and I can also hear them and feel them.
Being a trifecta, this means is that I can communicate with the deceased in a much similar way to the way I communicate to the living. When they talk, I hear what they are saying. When they enter the room, I can see that they’ve done that. So on and so forth.
But, not all mediums see dead people and even for the mediums who see dead people, they are not always seeing dead people.
How I Got Rid Of My Abilities
When I was a teenager, I hated my abilities and I wanted them gone.
I thought my abilities made me cursed and unlovable, and undatable.
It was during this time, that I taught myself how to not see dead people.
I learned how to ‘tune them out’ of my vision. When they were present, I practiced focusing more strongly on something in the physical world (like a television show or a project), instead.
And, as a teen, in order to fit into the social scene of living people, I thought it better if I learned how to tone out dead people - so that I could simply concentrate on when out with my friends or trying to lead a regular life.
Sure, you can tell them to leave. Sure, you can set boundaries with them.
But doing either of these things means you have to engage.
Many mediums choose to ‘turn their abilities down'* on purpose, in order to lead and maintain semi-normal lives.
It is during this time, that even the mediums who traditionally see Spirits, do not.
I’m not on duty all the time.
Nor do I want to be.
Sometimes, I just want to go to the store and be a normal person.
*Likewise, many mediums have learned how to turn up their abilities on command, as well, in order to shift their sensory system to pick up for spiritual cues rather than physical world cues.