Before I had a website, a blog, a Facebook page or any sort of following, I was giving readings out of my apartment to clients from my sister's pregnancy message board.
I was connecting people with their Loved Ones on the evenings and weekends after work.
The only way that you could get a hold of me was from word of mouth.
You had to know someone who knew someone who knew someone.
I was reallll secretive.
I was doing this, because at the time, I had a full-time job in a professional scientific career.
Basically, I was superman.
psychic by night, normal person by day
At the time, was working for a major university under a grant by a major governmental agency. I was producing materials of scientific nature through doing things with discrete, measurable scientific numbers. I’d been working in the sciences for quite a while.
By day, I was running plant tissue and water samples through a acid extraction process to obtain measurements on their chemical profile.
I was carefully measuring the growth of leaves, stems and measuring city pollution build-up levels in urban soil. I wore a lab coat on the days I worked inside. On the days I worked outside, I carried with me a clipboard, a field notebook, a camera and portable data gathering electronics. Usually, by the time I got home, I was covered in mud, soil and plant material from the field.
By night, I was talking to dead people, for people total strangers . . .who were also pregnant.
I was a real walking contradiction and Neither of my lives mixed with the other.
It didn't take long before my co-workers began to find out that something was up. And I came to a crossroads.
Eventually, I realized I couldn’t be two people. I didn't want to be one person on the outside and another on the inside.
Who was I? Clark Kent?
No, I sure wasnt. I was exhausted. I was tired. I was sleepless. And I didn’t even know why I was hiding or what I was doing, creating such a disconnect in my life. So, I changed that.
so i came out of the psychic closet.
Obviously, I did - because you're on this blog right now reading this!
I chose the Spirit life. . . but that doesn’t mean everyone in my life chose it with me. Some of the non-acceptance of me, I knew wasn't about me.
It was about a philosophy. It was a way of life. Even believing that someone can hear, see and sense Spirit - personally - is based around an entire thought system, built around an entire set of first hand life experiences.
The reason I believed that connecting with Spirit was possible was because my experiences showed me it was, but not everyone sees Spirits.
And to try to convince someone this is real and possible, when they themselves had never experienced it, is a futile effort.
It’s not even compassionate or accepting of them to convince someone into your way of life, when they are not ready to accept into their hearts.
Yet, it is much easier to reject a single person - than it is to change your entire worldview.
For that reason, I understand.
And I still accept and love you for it, guys.
While I chose the Spirit Life, I understand and accept that it is not for everyone.